"to be trusted is a greater compliment than being loved"

Ok so I used to think the idea of "talking" to someone worked out really well. It was one of those things where you didn't talk to anyone other than them and neither did they. So you were basically dating but without the title so you didn't have all the pressure on you of "breaking up" and dealing with peoples opinions about the relationship and everything. As i got older, the idea of "talking" changed a little bit. Same rules but now all of a sudden if you decided to "talk" to someone else and the person you're "talking" to doesn't find out its totally fine. Again, good thing there is no pressure about being in a relationship because than that would be called cheating! So i decided to sort things out. Technically, you are not dating. So if the other person decides to go and "talk" to someone else, you cant get mad. genius plan... unless you actually really like the person you're "talking" to. I have decided I am no longer doing this whole "talking" thing. As my future husband John Mayer puts it, "friends lovers or nothing there can only be one. friends lovers or nothing therell never be an in between so give it up."
I am over the high school crap! If you want to be with me than be with me! Stop playing games!

Now the new thing is...
A guy likes me. Tells me he misses me and he loves me and all he does is think about me blah blah blah. Ok, I tell you the same thing and I tell you I want a relationship. Now all of a sudden the guy has nothing to say. Well thanks for proving to me that you are full of shit! If you feel how you say you do then why the hell aren't we dating?! No reason we shouldn't be babe...

I'm trying this new thing where I am actually going to try trusting someone (idiotic of me i know) but I'm bored and i haven't done it in a while so I'm giving it a shot. although, i am setting the entire thing up for failure just so that in the end, I'm not as broken. That is exactly what my main problem is. I set whatever it is I have with someone (which is no longer "talking") up for failure before it even happens!
I think this is a problem for a lot of people. With this generation of lovers we are so scared of opening up too much and then getting hurt in the end that we build up this wall. Even when we try to break it down we will always have some type of defense up. Trust is a HUGEEE thing. It's actually a bitch because it separates us from ever having any type of REAL connection with someone.

What I don't understand... lets say you are assigned to a group project. you all divey up the amount of work and you are stuck trusting other people to help you get a good grade (mind you i hate group work for that reason but i have no choice) but we instantly trust someone in this situation. When it comes to our social lives, we trust no one! I cant tell certain girls certain things about me because who knows if they are gonna run their mouth and twist the story, and I cant trust myself to fall for a guy because i cant trust him to treat me how i should be treated!
There is nothing I can do about it! There is nothing you can do about it! It takes time, patience, and dozens of heartbreaks to get over it. So this is how I have decided to live my life...
" As for lovers, well, they'll come and go too. And babe, I hate to say it, most of them - actually pretty much all of them are going to break your heart, but you can't give up because if you give up, you'll never find your soul mate. You'll never find that half who makes you whole and that goes for everything. Just because you fail once, doesn't mean you're gonna fail at everything. Keep trying, hold on, and always, always, always believe in yourself, because if you don't, then who will, sweetie? So keep your head high, keep your chin up, and most importantly, keep smiling, because life's a beautiful thing and there's so much to smile about." -Marilyn Monroe

That bitch was a genius.